[this is just a waypoint on the road to the system’s final form]
In the mind there are only two things: concepts and emotional energy (hereafter referred to as simply energy). Action is downstream of both, and even if the signal is sent, it may not be obeyed. Thus it may be ignored.
One may view the mind as a three stage system – input, processing and output of CE (concepts/energy).
The flow of CE through the three part system has three possible conditions – blocked, turbulent and adaptive.
1. Blocked: blindspot/shutdown/delusion
2. Turbulent: anxiety, intermittency, circularity
3. Adaptive: desired performance
The goal of my koans is to correct my phenotypic and cultural maladaptations at all three stages.
The expansive koan system on the topside of my hands is for reflective deep processing, ie for the processing stage of the mind. The lightweight koan system on the underside of my wrists is for the social mode, for heavy output and input and light processing, for heavy energy throughput and light conceptual throughput.
A newly added koan goes through stages – epiphany, refinement, settling, ?deletion?. My “sigma” under-wrist koan moved from epiphany to refinement and became “sigma direct”.
I reflected on Vronsky in Tolstoy’s Anna Karenina, and on Vox’s descriptions of the sociosexual hierarchy. A distinguishing feature of ALPHA is directness. But what is the psychological analogue of this external behavior?
I realized that it is the unfiltered expression of the processing architecture’s form. Not anything else. ALPHA expresses the full range of human behavior – this is the only rule it truly follows. Or, if that is not true, then it is at least rule that I was failing to follow, that was holding me back.
Various conditions led me to avoid social directness. Deepsocket ingenopathy and cultural confusion caused core vulnerability and maladaptation that necessitated the exercise of caution and erection of protective barriers. Later, desperate and painful circumstances gave additional reason for caution. Koans fixed the core vulnerability and maladaptation, and right action mitigated the unacceptable risk.
It is an enjoyable experience, a major revision of my interpersonal style, and coupled with fuzzy SVM, means I will have to inductively relearn what my social priorities are. Things that I previously enjoyed I may no longer desire, and things I previously eschewed I may now enjoy.